I am eighteen years old.

I feel that I have some sort of anti-social personality disorder. I have been reading a lot on Sociopathy and Pyschopathy, and I have found that nearly ALL of the criteria within these fits me in some way.

Firstly, things that I share in common with the aforementioned:
I am very good at using acted emotions to get people to do what I want.
(I recently threatened suicide and cut my wrist, knowing that I would not die, I did not wish to die. I did this in order to get my mother and step father to give me sympathy and ease-off of being so demanding of me. When I was placed in the treatment center, I was able to "play" the doctor and nurses and staff there to believe that I really have depression. They otherwise saw me as normal. I knew what way to act, which parts of me to leave out.)

Most people I know, as well as the teachers at school, they all adore me.

I never feel guilty in any way when I lie or steal. I feel like I enjoy it.

I love to drink and to use marijuana.

I feel like I have a lack of empathy for others.

I got in a LOT of trouble for various things when I was younger, starting at puberty, about 14 years of age.

I have been unable to keep a job, and with school, I was kicked out due to not coming, so I am now attending a night school, which I barely attend.

I am sexually interested in all people, male, female, adult or children.

I tend to mooch off of other people, when I am not getting what I want, I live with another person.

I don’t feel ashamed or feel like anything is wrong with me, I simply am interested.

I am very narcissistic, and I only want to please myself.

I feel like I would enjoy killing things or people. I have not done so, nor do I plan to. But I often fantasize about killing. I think frequently about how I could stay undiscovered. I watch documentaries and read about different people who got away with many murders, and I try to take mental notes of what they did right and then what got them caught.

I recently was watching the show "Lie to Me", a crime show in which there is a man who is able to read people’s faces like books and tell exactly what kind of emotions they are feeling. Instantly when I saw this, I could see myself being questioned by this man, and I became enraged inside that it could be possible for someone to simply look at my face and "get inside" of my mind. I HATE it when anyone tries to understand me, or tries to get my to talk about "feelings". <This happened before I even started reading about sociopathy. My mother knows a good bit about psychology and sociology, and she has told me before that I display traits of a sociopath. She is constantly trying to get me to "talk about what I am thinking" or "Tell me what you feel", and it angers me really badly. I am able to easily hide my anger for the most part, and the only person I EVER argue with is my mother. In fact, she (and about 3-4 times, my stepfather) is the only one I have had difficulties with in nearly all of my life that I can remember.

My biological father displays MUCH more of the sociopathic traits than I do. He is interested in child-girls, and I have suspicions that he is also bisexual. He NEVER takes blame for any action he commits, instead blames others. He genuinely feels that everything is other’s fault. He is very self-confident. He has been able to lie in courts for years. He used to beat my mother, and has beat me before. He is a coward, and will only fight those he sees as weaker than himself. He seems to genuinely love me as a son, which is odd for a sociopath. He has stayed in this state (region) for years so that he could see me, rather than living back in his state of origin. I feel little connection to my father, and I do not believe I love him. I have no guilt for never thinking of him or trying to call him UNTIL he calls me. I will talk to him, tell him "I love you too, dad", and etc… and later on I will think about why it is he is trying to contact me again, THEN I do feel guilty for not feeling any love towards my father, when he apparently does.

Now, here are the things which would make it seem that I am NOT either of the two:

I think I feel love for my mother and my stepfather, and my cat. (Then again, I recently lost my dog and ferret, which I thought I loved, when they were gone, I immediately detached myself from them. I also believe that once my mother is gone, I will feel only some remorse for her, but will be relieved for her not being in my life and hindering me.)

I do feel that sometimes I have various depression states, in which I basically hate myself, AND I blame myself for my problems, which is not typical of a sociopath/psychopath.
I am a male.

My question was too long. This is the continuation:

I believe that I sort of "fell in love" or maybe had a crush on a close friend of mine. After a while, he has completely cut me out of his life, and I WAS torn up about it inside for about a week, after that I have been fine. I am not sure what to think here.

I have certain political beliefs which are SUPPOSED to be about caring for people and loving of others. I am a Communist, and I have read Marx’s and many of Lenin’s works. I feel a different kind of "love" for people in general, but only as a large mass number. (Individually, I feel like I could not care any less about each person. I have dreams of having a world where there is the "Hive Mind" mentality.)

Tags: anti social personality disorder, depression, documentaries, emotions, female adult, job, lack of empathy, marijuana, murders, nurses, puberty, social personality, sociopathy, suicide, sympathy

I am eighteen years old.

I feel that I have some sort of anti-social personality disorder. I have been reading a lot on Sociopathy and Pyschopathy, and I have found that nearly ALL of the criteria within these fits me in some way.

Firstly, things that I share in common with the aforementioned:
I am very good at using acted emotions to get people to do what I want.
(I recently threatened suicide and cut my wrist, knowing that I would not die, I did not wish to die. I did this in order to get my mother and step father to give me sympathy and ease-off of being so demanding of me. When I was placed in the treatment center, I was able to "play" the doctor and nurses and staff there to believe that I really have depression. They otherwise saw me as normal. I knew what way to act, which parts of me to leave out.)

Most people I know, as well as the teachers at school, they all adore me.

I never feel guilty in any way when I lie or steal. I feel like I enjoy it.

I love to drink and to use marijuana.

I feel like I have a lack of empathy for others.

I got in a LOT of trouble for various things when I was younger, starting at puberty, about 14 years of age.

I have been unable to keep a job, and with school, I was kicked out due to not coming, so I am now attending a night school, which I barely attend.

I am sexually interested in all people, male, female, adult or children.

I tend to mooch off of other people, when I am not getting what I want, I live with another person.

I don’t feel ashamed or feel like anything is wrong with me, I simply am interested.

I am very narcissistic, and I only want to please myself.

I feel like I would enjoy killing things or people. I have not done so, nor do I plan to. But I often fantasize about killing. I think frequently about how I could stay undiscovered. I watch documentaries and read about different people who got away with many murders, and I try to take mental notes of what they did right and then what got them caught.

I recently was watching the show "Lie to Me", a crime show in which there is a man who is able to read people’s faces like books and tell exactly what kind of emotions they are feeling. Instantly when I saw this, I could see myself being questioned by this man, and I became enraged inside that it could be possible for someone to simply look at my face and "get inside" of my mind. I HATE it when anyone tries to understand me, or tries to get my to talk about "feelings". <This happened before I even started reading about sociopathy. My mother knows a good bit about psychology and sociology, and she has told me before that I display traits of a sociopath. She is constantly trying to get me to "talk about what I am thinking" or "Tell me what you feel", and it angers me really badly. I am able to easily hide my anger for the most part, and the only person I EVER argue with is my mother. In fact, she (and about 3-4 times, my stepfather) is the only one I have had difficulties with in nearly all of my life that I can remember.

My biological father displays MUCH more of the sociopathic traits than I do. He is interested in child-girls, and I have suspicions that he is also bisexual. He NEVER takes blame for any action he commits, instead blames others. He genuinely feels that everything is other’s fault. He is very self-confident. He has been able to lie in courts for years. He used to beat my mother, and has beat me before. He is a coward, and will only fight those he sees as weaker than himself. He seems to genuinely love me as a son, which is odd for a sociopath. He has stayed in this state (region) for years so that he could see me, rather than living back in his state of origin. I feel little connection to my father, and I do not believe I love him. I have no guilt for never thinking of him or trying to call him UNTIL he calls me. I will talk to him, tell him "I love you too, dad", and etc… and later on I will think about why it is he is trying to contact me again, THEN I do feel guilty for not feeling any love towards my father, when he apparently does.

Now, here are the things which would make it seem that I am NOT either of the two:

I think I feel love for my mother and my stepfather, and my cat. (Then again, I recently lost my dog and ferret, which I thought I loved, when they were gone, I immediately detached myself from them. I also believe that once my mother is gone, I will feel only some remorse for her, but will be relieved for her not being in my life and hindering me.)

I do feel that sometimes I have various depression states, in which I basically hate myself, AND I blame myself for my problems, which is not typical of a sociopath/psychopath.

I believe that I sort of "fell in love" or maybe had a crush on a close friend of mine. After a while, he has completely cut m
I am also a male.
My question was too long. This is the continuation:

I believe that I sort of "fell in love" or maybe had a crush on a close friend of mine. After a while, he has completely cut me out of his life, and I WAS torn up about it inside for about a week, after that I have been fine. I am not sure what to think here.

I have certain political beliefs which are SUPPOSED to be about caring for people and loving of others. I am a Communist, and I have read Marx’s and many of Lenin’s works. I feel a different kind of "love" for people in general, but only as a large mass number. (Individually, I feel like I could not care any less about each person. I have dreams of having a world where there is the "Hive Mind" mentality.)

Tags: anti social personality disorder, depression, documentaries, emotions, female adult, job, lack of empathy, marijuana, murders, nurses, puberty, social personality, sociopathy, suicide, sympathy

I am eighteen years old.
I am a male.

I feel that I have some sort of anti-social personality disorder. I have been reading a lot on Sociopathy and Pyschopathy, and I have found that nearly ALL of the criteria within these fits me in some way.

Firstly, things that I share in common with the aforementioned:
I am very good at using acted emotions to get people to do what I want.
(I recently threatened suicide and cut my wrist, knowing that I would not die, I did not wish to die. I did this in order to get my mother and step father to give me sympathy and ease-off of being so demanding of me. When I was placed in the treatment center, I was able to "play" the doctor and nurses and staff there to believe that I really have depression. They otherwise saw me as normal. I knew what way to act, which parts of me to leave out.)

Most people I know, as well as the teachers at school, they all adore me.

I never feel guilty in any way when I lie or steal. I feel like I enjoy it.

I love to drink and to use marijuana.

I feel like I have a lack of empathy for others.

I got in a LOT of trouble for various things when I was younger, starting at puberty, about 14 years of age.

I have been unable to keep a job, and with school, I was kicked out due to not coming, so I am now attending a night school, which I barely attend.

I am sexually interested in all people, male, female, adult or children.

I tend to mooch off of other people, when I am not getting what I want, I live with another person.

I don’t feel ashamed or feel like anything is wrong with me, I simply am interested.

I am very narcissistic, and I only want to please myself.

I feel like I would enjoy killing things or people. I have not done so, nor do I plan to. But I often fantasize about killing. I think frequently about how I could stay undiscovered. I watch documentaries and read about different people who got away with many murders, and I try to take mental notes of what they did right and then what got them caught.

I recently was watching the show "Lie to Me", a crime show in which there is a man who is able to read people’s faces like books and tell exactly what kind of emotions they are feeling. Instantly when I saw this, I could see myself being questioned by this man, and I became enraged inside that it could be possible for someone to simply look at my face and "get inside" of my mind. I HATE it when anyone tries to understand me, or tries to get my to talk about "feelings". <This happened before I even started reading about sociopathy. My mother knows a good bit about psychology and sociology, and she has told me before that I display traits of a sociopath. She is constantly trying to get me to "talk about what I am thinking" or "Tell me what you feel", and it angers me really badly. I am able to easily hide my anger for the most part, and the only person I EVER argue with is my mother. In fact, she (and about 3-4 times, my stepfather) is the only one I have had difficulties with in nearly all of my life that I can remember.

My biological father displays MUCH more of the sociopathic traits than I do. He is interested in child-girls, and I have suspicions that he is also bisexual. He NEVER takes blame for any action he commits, instead blames others. He genuinely feels that everything is other’s fault. He is very self-confident. He has been able to lie in courts for years. He used to beat my mother, and has beat me before. He is a coward, and will only fight those he sees as weaker than himself. He seems to genuinely love me as a son, which is odd for a sociopath. He has stayed in this state (region) for years so that he could see me, rather than living back in his state of origin. I feel little connection to my father, and I do not believe I love him. I have no guilt for never thinking of him or trying to call him UNTIL he calls me. I will talk to him, tell him "I love you too, dad", and etc… and later on I will think about why it is he is trying to contact me again, THEN I do feel guilty for not feeling any love towards my father, when he apparently does.

Now, here are the things which would make it seem that I am NOT either of the two:

I think I feel love for my mother and my stepfather, and my cat. (Then again, I recently lost my dog and ferret, which I thought I loved, when they were gone, I immediately detached myself from them. I also believe that once my mother is gone, I will feel only some remorse for her, but will be relieved for her not being in my life and hindering me.)

I do feel that sometimes I have various depression states, in which I basically hate myself, AND I blame myself for my problems, which is not typical of a sociopath/psychopath.
My question was too long. This is the continuation:

I believe that I sort of "fell in love" or maybe had a crush on a close friend of mine. After a while, he has completely cut me out of his life, and I WAS torn up about it inside for about a week, after that I have been fine. I am not sure what to think here.

I have certain political beliefs which are SUPPOSED to be about caring for people and loving of others. I am a Communist, and I have read Marx’s and many of Lenin’s works. I feel a different kind of "love" for people in general, but only as a large mass number. (Individually, I feel like I could not care any less about each person. I have dreams of having a world where there is the "Hive Mind" mentality.)
If you read this, and wish to answer, then answer me with something useful. I need an answer for this, it will help me. If you are simply going to answer to say something cruel, then please, don’t say anything at all. I feel bad enough as is.
Stupid woman at the end… I don’t actually feel badly. I use it to try to get someone actually educated to give me an answer. You think I am upset with this? I LOVE it! I can use my abilities to herd you mindless sheep around to go and do whatever I want! I can create tears in a flash, I can act happy that I am spending time with your worthless life, I can tell you anything I wish and you will take it all right on in. I love people like you, you are most definitely my favorite.
For all you know, this entire question could have completely false information, and you may have just taken in a complete lie! Foolish bitch.

Tags: anti social personality disorder, depression, documentaries, emotions, female adult, job, lack of empathy, marijuana, murders, nurses, puberty, social personality, sociopathy, suicide, sympathy