I was visiting a psychologist with my grandmother for panic attacks & anger problems.While i was in his office my grandmother start comparing me to my uncle and stated maybe i have the same mental illness as him at this point became aggressive and said "Don’t ever compare ME to that idiot again hes a poor loser" the psychologist then looked at me and said "Do you think that you are special and deserve special treatment?" I said "Yes".He then asked me could he speak to my grandmother alone so i went outside i think he found out something.When i was in highschool i had a reputation as a bully i assaulted about 10 foreign students leaving 2 with serious injuries.I always act nice and charming around people i admire like a relative with lots of money because i see them on the same level as me,but if a low life person ever tells me to do something i tell them to go F themselves.I havnt had a conversation with my sister in around 7 years because i think she has a big nose & is ugly.I’m always making up lies about my life (I own cars,i model etc).I feel shame sometimes but its shallow,i have never felt guilt in my life i cant even grasp what it is.If an ugly person or a poor person ever challenges me i try to devalue them in every way possible.I’m always looking at myself in the mirror & have an obsession with my looks and money.A man who lived across the street from me got hit by a car and died the other day my parents were saying how bad they felt while i was cracking dark jokes about him to my brother.I can act like an angel in front of people even though i see them as below me.If i walk by a nice looking girl and look at her and she doesnt look back i go into a fit of rage "How dare she not look at me".I was adopted by my grandparents when i was 2.Ive been spoiled from an early age and never have been told no.My whole family are heartless biggots.

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